Life is a journey full of tests

At school, they test you.
At uni, they test you.
At interviews, they also test you.
At work, your employer test your performance.

Not to forget,
in your every day's life,
God is also testing you.
Test your patience,
test your integrity,
test your faith,
test your courage,
and so on...

And I'm sick of all these testssssssssss.....

Flames to dust

When the flames are turning into dust,
will you try your best to save the flames?

Or will you let flames turn into dust and build another fire?

What if you've saved it but it's turning into dust again,
will you save it again and again?

I'm back in KL!!!

I just love the weather, the people, the food, my room and my bed, etc...
Just feels good to be home =)

The eating and shopping continues....
Ahaha....

Temptations

They are everywhere...
The clothes...
The shoes...
The bags...
They are asking me to buy them.
The food is even worse...
They are asking me to eat them.
Ahaha...
So irresistable...

Fate

Do you believe in fate?
Is everything in this world fated?
Are we all fated to be what we are now?
Have you ever wondered what would happen if you have chosen the other option?

Contradiction

During the semester when I'm busy with assignments and exams,
I wanted a long long break so desperately.
Now that I have all the time in the world,
I wished I have something to keep me busy.

一个人的冬天

一个人

在异乡的冬天

感觉

特别寂寞

特别孤单

特别想家

特别低落

特别渴望暖暖的阳光

特别渴望暖暖的拥抱

特别渴望他人的关怀

特别盼望春天的到来

Aimless

Exams and uni ended.
I have nothing to do except waiting for time to pass and for results to be released.
Suddenly I felt so aimless.
I miss home soooooooooooooooo much.

寄人篱下 2

我以为我可以暂时地忍耐。
我错了。
今天，那一番话，令我更难受。
我恨不得考完试那天就搭飞机回家。　

心灵相通

Just as i finished posting the previous entry, he told me that he also dreamt that I went back to KL.
So sweet...
My motivation to study is up up up!

童年阴影

I was surfing the net looking for jobs.
I noticed that most jobs require candidates to be adaptable to ‘fast changing environments’.
Honestly, I really don’t like changes, small changes ok lah, but not fast and big changes.
This is probably due to my 童年阴影

When I started Std 1, I was enrolled in a ‘sekolah rendah kebangsaan’.
After 2 or 3 months, my mum noticed that the school wasn’t very good and transferred me to a Chinese primary school.
After finishing Std 1, my mum thought the environment of the 2nd school wasn’t good either and hence I transferred to another Chinese school again when Std 2 started.
Then, in Std 4 I changed from the normal class to the ‘best’ class.

Everytime I change school or change class, I need a lot of effort to adapt.
Everyone seemed to know each other as they started the class together and were friends already.
I find it difficult to mix with them and my Mandarin wasn’t good either.
I also need to keep up with what everyone has learnt cos different school and class may have different teaching plans.
You may think that it’s good for a kid to be exposed to changing environments.
But, eventually, I kinda developed a phobia when I knew I’m gonna enter into a different environment.

Even a friend whom I got to know last year while working noticed that I don’t like changes.
She said that I always ordered the same drink or food when I went to particular stall for breakfast or lunch.
I didn’t realize that until she told me.
No one has ever told me that before or I may have forgotten.

But no matter how, I still have state in my resume that ‘I’m adaptable to the fast changing environments’ and pretend to be adaptable when I start working.
This world is so real.

寄人篱下的感觉不好受！

为了省钱，在这里我选择了住在我姑姑家。
他们一家人都很照顾我的衣行住食。
我住了这么久，他们也没向我收过一分钱。
我真的很感激他们。

可是，昨晚我姑丈问我，我什么时候考完试，什么时候回家乡。
我就告诉他说六月尾考完试，七月尾回家乡。
他又问我考完试打算在这里做什么。
我就告诉他我要等成绩出了才回去。
他又说成绩不必等，上网就可以查到。

这一刻，我感觉到他不想我在这里再呆多几个里拜。
想我考完试后就立刻回家。
突然间觉得我自己很不被受欢迎。

是不是自己太敏感了呢？
还是我做错了什么，说错了什么？

Absence makes the heart fonder

Came across this phrase while blog hopping.
Very true indeed...

Somehow, LDR makes me treasure my relationship with him more.
Maybe it's because I don't have much friends here and my social life here can be flushed down the toilet.
So I guess I spent most of my time missing him...

Some people thought that LDR doesn't work.
But I think if when you really love someone and you are willing to put a little effort in the relationship, it will definitely work!

Home sick...

I'm back at Melb to continue my studies and I'm home sick again...

I wanna go home!

Just hope that time can pass faster....