Tuesday, November 4, 2008


Someone told me,
in order to succeed in this corporate world,
for people like me,
who does not come from a filthy rich family,
or does not have any political connections,
I need to work my ass off.

Very true indeed,
and it somehow wakes me up.
This is the reality,
and I just can't get away from it.
Although I realise this long ago,
but I was suddenly inspired to work my ass off,

From today onwards,
I'm gonna work hard and work harder.
I'm gonna be the first in and last out from the office.
I'm gonna stop job hopping,
unless it is an offer from Goldman Sachs or equivalent.

Will I ever make it?

Wednesday, August 27, 2008


One day, I bumped into the CEO in the lift. I was the only one there and he stood right beside me as the lift was a small one. Being polite, I said, “Hi, Dato!” He replied, “Hi! How are you?” And I said, “Good.” And that’s it. There was an awkward silence after that until he reached 8th floor.

Of course he doesn’t know who I was as I’m just a small potato. But I could have continued the conversation like asking him how was his day or at least talk about the weather. It’s not that I don’t know what to say. It’s just that I’m afraid that I’ll say something stupid or ask the wrong question.

I’m always not assertive enough talking or behaving in front of my bosses. I know they would not eat me up even if I’ve said something stupid but I’m just too conscious of what they think of me or what I’ve said.

“Assertiveness is a trait taught by many personal development experts and psychotherapists and the subject of many popular self-help books. It is linked to self-esteem and considered an important communication skill.” Source: Wikipedia.

The lack of assertiveness is one of my weaknesses. This is what my ex-boss told me. I’m confident while talking to my peers yet not assertive in front of bosses. I always answer questions from bosses with questions and dare not voice out my opinion. It’s very true and it’s not something that I’m proud of.

When will I ever overcome this?

Monday, August 18, 2008

I’m back!

Finally. I’ve left my first job. Why? I want to find my self-worthiness. I wanna do something more dynamic, more meaningful, more related to finance, learn more things and, most importantly, doing something that can help me find my self-worthiness.

The previous job: pay – not bad, benefits – very good, colleagues – good, boss – so-so, environment – good, facilities – good, job scope – bad! bad! bad! I didn’t like what I was doing. Maybe it’s because of my ego. Although part of the job scope is interesting but I can’t learn what I want. For now, I wanna find what I really wanna do. I’m still young and still quite fresh, I wanna take this opportunity to explore more things.

Some people say they wanna make more money when they’re still young. For me, money is not the only thing now, maybe because I don’t have any financial burden yet, so I’m lucky to do what I wanna do. I guess when I have found what I want and what I like, money will come too (hopefully).

It has been more than a week since I resigned. I will start my new job in September but I’m still looking around for other opportunities. Yeah, I’m greedy! I have been staying at home for more than a week and I’m bored already! I actually miss going to work. I thought I needed to rest and refresh myself before starting work but this holiday is too long. I finally felt the pinch of not generating any income. I have to think twice before spending. I just hope that September can come faster.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

I need...

A new lappie,
new phone,
new camera,
new bag,
new shoes,
new clothes,
and most importantly,

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Monday blues

My handphone's alarm rang at 6.30am.
I woke up wondering why the hell did it rang as I always set it to ring on weekdays only.
Soon I realise that weekend is over!!!
How can???
Don't you just hate Mondays? ;)

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Valentine's flowers

Here some pics of the flowers which my colleagues and I received on V-day.

This is my flower bouquet.
Nice or not? =)

This belongs to one of my colleague's, from her known admirer.
The little teddy is so cute!

This belongs to my another colleague's, from a secret admirer.
It's really a huge hand bouquet.

Lion dance in my work place

About an hour before I left my workplace today,
there's an anouncement saying that there's lion dance at the lobby of my office's building.
Noone in my department seems to care about it.
Around 4.45pm, as I have packed my things and ready to leave the office,
I heard drums rolling and saw that two lions dancing their way to our floor.
We were delighted and surprised....
Apparently, the lion dance troupe went to every floor.
Ok, maybe almost every floor cos there's 21 floors.
Here's the pics....

The Lion is coming to wish everyone ‘Gong Hei Fatt Choi’

Dancing its way to the Department Head’s table….

The cheeky lion still manage to pose for photos b4 reaching…

The lion reached the dept head’s table and tastes the mandarin orange…

"Yummmy.... The mandarin orange tastes good!"

The lion dancing its way again, this time to my table.

Meeting up with its twin lion on the way….

The guy trying to lead the two playful lions.

Finally, it found its way to my place to taste the orange.

Posing for photos again after tasting the mandarin orange. Poser…

The orange 'tasted' by the lion…

This is my first time watching a lion dance inside an office =)

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!

Happy Chinese New Year!!!
Wishing all of you a properous year ahead!!!
Apparently, the rat year is not good for the 'rats', so beware.

Sorry that I did not update my blog often.
Nothing much to update lately.
Except that I've been job hunting again.
Wish me luck!