Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Missing home, again...

Hmmm… how shall I start?

After a month or 2 after I arrived in Melb, my granny was diagnosed with leukaemia.
Before this, she has been suffering from some blood disorder, which is not life threatening, but it has worsened to be leukaemia.
Two months ago when she needed blood transfusion, I couldn’t do anything even tough I have the same blood group as her since I’m already in Melb.
I felt so helpless.
Yesterday, while she’s in the hospital, she asked my mom when will I return to KL.
Though I’m not her favourite among all my cousins, she still looks forward for me to go home.
And mind u, she didn’t ask about her own daughter who’s in Canada.
Now, I feel even more helpless since my exams start next week and I couldn’t go home.

Now that I’m far away from, I learnt to appreciate my family more.
Before I came here, I used to think that migrating to countries like UK n Australia is good cos u can earn more money and there’s more social benefits compared to Malaysia.

Yes, without money u can’t survive but money is not everything.
Now that I’m here, I’d like to be closer to my family back home.

Sometimes I wonder what’s the use of people migrating away from their home country, being away from their family, relatives n friends.
When I look at cousins who grew up in Melb, I thought to myself, I wouldn’t want my children to be like them.
Not that they are bad or anything but they know very little about their roots compared to me.
They are educated and smart yet they can’t really converse in their own mother tongue.
You may think that their parents are at fault but I feel it’s not easy for them to teach their children everything about their roots.

Nevertheless, I’m thankful that technology has enabled me to keep in touch with my family, friends and of course my dearest bb.
Can u imagine prior to the 1990s, internet and handphones are luxury and these things didn’t even exist way before that.
I really don’t understand how those students studying overseas survive without emails, internet, MSN and IDD calling cards back then.

Now, I could only pray for my granny and hope that I will be able to see her when I go home.

4 comments:

Baby Princess said...

Chi Yng...

Be strong...

I am one that will be migrating!!
But I'll still want my kids to know their roots. And I will bring my daddy.. If he doesn't want to follow... I'll at least make him to stay with me once a year at least!

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Anonymous said...

Hope your grandma doesnt suffer too much. Be strong yourself.

I agree with you that money couldnt buy a lot of things including your friends and family's presence. Currently debating whether wanna stay in UK after i graduate, but since the UK government changed its immigration rules to make it harder to get a job i think my choice would be easier...

End of the day .... you will still go home to where you come from, even though their policies are as bias as ever.

yng.yng said...

Thanks for your concerns.

PS, if i really wanna migrate, i'd probably consider s'pore too cos its much more nearer to KL, i could go back anytime n s'pore's full of chinese n i could speak manglish/singlish n of course orchard road! ;P

Kwan Yew, i totally agree with u. no matter how bias da govt's policies are, m'sia is still the best! =)